things fall apart (act 2)

the smashed word open vowel
the cracked up glass open smear
the burgeoning little biggest thing
the centre
the centre that couldn’t hold
the stain that couldn’t be found
the silent roared up hurt
the roared up heartbroken vowel
the concise silent hurt
the middle
the bereft cold concise silence
the middle.
always the middle.

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things fall apart

old crack

old crack smoldering hurt

old cracked mask

hurt

blood

                               (open)

split

                              spilled

floor

old mask crumbling hurt

split spill spilled

woe

bigger the biggest

pain, dying and other things.

the middle,

the centre hurt

old, hot burning woe

hurt

mask crumbling hurt

woe

woe,

woe.

- nylamexico

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she was vehement floodlight
and gun powder,
they couldn’t recognize her burning

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nylamexico

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flume

he wanted me small,
but I couldn’t fit into hands.
and so he cut off my tongue,
but my heart roared in silent magnitudes
he told me his irises were burning,
that my light was too bright

but i couldn’t be burnt out


and so he took my body instead
and never gave it back

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nylamexico

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for motherless daughters

  1. you were an excuse for my mother’s absent love
  2. looking for you was easier than looking for her heart
  3. she walked out one day and never came back so I ran to your cold,empty arms
  4. i had never known love, or sweetness, her ‘love’ came vile and angry
  5. you were vile and angry, so I mistakened you for the love of my life

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nylamexico

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open your eyes, honey, it’s all a flux

the universe is never constant

forever moving, changing, evolving, as you should too 

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nylamexico

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he kisses my feet/I think him strange
he kisses my mouth/he kisses my hands/I imagine your lips
I turn to rot/i wondered if he could taste you on my skin/
I wear you every night/”see, it’s not you” I tell him, “It’s just that you’re kissing all the places that burns.”/
He asked me where does it not burn/i tell him nowhere

my skin has burnt to ashes.


can’t you see it?

can you see it?

see?

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nylamexico

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once I began shutting the world out an entire universe opened up inside of me

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nylamexico

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I stopped looking for you and started looking for God instead,
And so I went back into myself and found that loneliness did not exist,

it was merely the abondoned child who couldn’t find her way back home

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nylamexico

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